Ending Things

Alright so i'm ending things with jason.. why? well mainly one reason.. i'm a girl who will date one guy.. yeah i made a mistake and didn't follow that, but it wasn't who i am and it's not someone i would want to be again.. i'm not going to ask jason to pick me or his g/f because it's not fair to him to make him pick.. I wouldn't want to be in a spot like that either.. and to be honest i can't date someone who can't just date me so i'm pulling out of it because i get in to deep.. Although i know i'm in deep already.. i'll be fine right now.. i'll have my break down and it will be over.. I just know that i can't do it.. it's not who i am.. i am very jealous and holy shit it can get bad and i don't want to go down that road unless i have to.. Yes jason is a great guy and i would not want anything else but to spend every second talking to him or being with him right now, but i just can't handle that fact. I'm hoping he finds a way to talk to me tonight.. although i thought about it and well he talking to me now so i can tell him, but i thought about him being at the store tomorrow and just calling in sick because of the thought of seeing him will be hard before or after talking to him.. i'm on the verge of crying now because i don't want to do this, but to save myself from more heartache it's better to just end it now...